Updates...etc.

I have kept away from my blog, too much emotion floating around for one person to bear...so I have kept quiet....

kept things bottled up, just kept them to myself for the most part.

so here are the updates

• Not in the wedding party anymore for my sister, who gets married in less than 60 days.  The last time we spoke was January 5, 2011.  We had a fight, a BIG one, about a party I wanted to throw for her, she didn't want a surprise, blah blah blah, and we got into a huge fight.  So no longer in the wedding party and no longer attending the wedding
• Have subsequently, in the last six months, asked her numerous times to talk to me, have said sorry (she feels she doesnt' owe me an apology at all, however said some of the nastiest things to me too) has said she will only speak to me if I drive to her house, knock on the door and even then she "might" answer it.....ok, DRAMA queen.
• Work is good, busy...can't really complain, would like too but not going too
• In two other wedding parties, one for next feb the other for the following october, im excited for both, really know i've been asked because im wanted to be a part of their days...im excited.
• That's it really....sadly i've been living in a bubble of upset because of the whole "sister non communication thing"......its just really sad....and i feel like giving up now, I dont even want to try anymore

so that's it..those are the most current updates....aren't you glad you tuned in? I wish I had more positive uplifting stuff to add but at this point, im just glad that things are starting to settle down...I dont feel as sad anymore..I dont feel the same level of upset...tho every day I wonder "is this the day she decides to call"

I feel at some point, it's going to be too late for us.....