So.....

I've gone and done it. Booked an appointment with a nutrionist that is going to help me along the way of losing the weight that I have been carrying around for far too long.

I hate looking in the mirror now. I knew it was time to do something when I couldn't even stand the sight of myself anymore.

What is really intersting, is no one else seems to comment on the problem BUT my mother, which I think is her natural state of mind, to critize the way I look. I mean I realize she wants me to be happy and healthy, especially with the long emotional journey im about to partake in. I mean I know she knows Im an emotional eater, which is probably why I want to get a handle on this now or im going to end up being kicked off some sort of airplane for being too heavy. I know she wants what is best. I just dont need to HEAR it every time I talk to her, know what I mean?

I know that i have to lose it. I know it's going to be a shitload of work. I Also know, I want to smile when I look in the mirror again.

*sigh* unfortuantely I cant start this program for 6-8 weeks. It is so intense, so many people want in to see this doctor that it's that long of a wait period.....good things come to those who wait right? or would that be "weight"....either way...im ready to start.....